Life sucks so lets get drunk!

I got this message in an email. Further below you can see my reply.

My life sucks. 2006 sucked big time. I can’t even say how much it sucked. I was unemployed most of the year, meaning 11 months out of 12. My relationship with my 2 sisters ended. I lost my home. My Aunt died. I got addicted to Oxy-cotton and later went through withdrawals getting clean. I’m overweight. I’m tired and sick and sick and tired of being alive and awake. I can’t seem to get the old days out of my mind. I am stuck in the old days. I don’t make much sense but that’s ok. Because right here and now is the only time that I don’t have to make sense. I just want to type. I don’t care if i’m heard. I don’t care if I don’t write the next great novel. I don’t care if half of you even understand me. I don’t care if 1% of you understand me. I don’t even care if I know why I am writing this…I just am. So at this point I am wondering why I have a headache…maybe because I drank a half bottle of vodka. Do I want people to spit on me? Or look down on me? Or maybe have pity? No. Not pity. I hate pity. I hate it because I don’t give it and don’t expect it. However, I don’t mind telling people my problems. It’s almost as if I wait for someone to give me pity and then at that point scoff at them for giving it to me. Am I bi-polar? Why do I get drunk and then wish I was sober? Why do I buy an eighth of weed, get high and then try to give the rest of it away? Why, why, why? Oh well……

Life sucks so lets get drunk!

Reply:

Hey, don’t feel bad or alone. I had a friend commit suicide, almost lost my mom to med issues, was dumped by someone who I thought was “it”, but before being dumped found out I have a disease from that person that will impare my ability to have children in the future and causes me intense pain quite often, Found out 2 family members have cancer that will (according to Dr.’s will give them a year or 2 left, was laid off, almost ran out of money to finish school which I had to break into my CD’s for. The list really goes on. And I mean at least 3 pages worth. And it turns out EVERY single one of my friends has had a shitty 2006. And I mean really bad (OK all but one but she is the kindest most humble loving person I know). Lots of run-ons I know. Point is I have a lot of anger because of 2006, and yes it has changed the peron that I was. I’m not as happy and very very deensive and on guard. But, maybe that is the person who i am meant to be. So instead of getting drunk (a little is OK) be that new person. Look at the shitty year as a revalation. Don’t so anything that would cause pain unto others or yourself. 2007 should be a better year. *Fingers Crossed* Short time we have here. You have found yourself. It’s ok to let things bother you as long as YOU are in control and not let your past situations control you.